I know….I hardly ever blog. I have LOTS of words, in my head, in word documents…just not here :/
One day though, I will place more of them here…..promise!!!
And I have SOOOO much I want to talk about, SOOOO much going on, but there’s no sense in making both of our heads a whirling mess So, I’ll stick with just this one topic….
Many changes have been happening around here. and one of the biggest is that we will be relocating in February. (or sometime around then) Not far….(unless God is very clear about something I haven’t seen yet) but moving from our current home! I’m actually excited about this move. I mean, I love my house, don’t get me wrong. and we’ve grown so much here. but part of me says just that…. “it’s JUST a house”. and it’s a nice home,
we’ve hubby has put a lot of labor into this home. (like the time I returned from a trip with my gma to find the walls torn down….oh, yeah! stay on topic Stacey)
The thing is, this house has ALWAYS been to expensive for us. No one should have EVER loaned us the money to move here. and after a LONG time of attempting the making homes affordable modification plans, we have decided to start fresh.
This house is big…TO big! and there is WAY to much un-utilized space here. and we don’t have the kind of money to put into making it all work.
I grateful for this house. God has been SO faithful to us. and HE is the ONLY reason we’ve been here this long. It’s almost embarrassing how good he’s been to us.
Here’s where it gets tricky….although, I will go WHEREVER I truly feel God sending us, and I am by NO MEANS materialistic. I want things!!!! Things like base boards in every room, doors that shut and have handles, (and locks) matching dishes, and bedroom outfits for the boys….and little stuff like that.
Those are my standards! I don’t mind if the home is smaller, but I promise you if it isn’t I will use the space more responsibly! I want a completely functional HOME that doesn’t require any repairs, projects, or remodels. I actually think I might want a smaller yard…one that can NOT become an episode of hoarders. (not joking here peeps)
I want a clean, sleek, functionable home. I want to be just a little closer to my family and friends. And as I have been telling the hubby and kids…. I want a brand new start!!! BRAND new….for me, for our boys, and for our lives!!! a COMPLETE and dramatic change is in order, and I SOOO desire it!!! Even if that means God places us in something we never dreamed we’d be in.
Is it wrong as a christian wife, mother, and woman to want nice things? matching things? functionable things? I hope not….becuase I think this now is the desire of my heart.
Pray for us will ya? As with all transitions, it may be hard. We may meet resistance. Pray God is clear to us in the direction we should go, and that we actually hear Him!
and thanks for stickin’ around…..I promise to get it together one day! (but I can’t talk about that now, because I have to stay on subject)