Theres comfort in coffee

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As I sit awake in this waiting room; “the holding tank for crazy people” grieving for an innocent boy who has been bound by the enemy.
Weary, trying to trust in God, yet wondering where is His presence at this moment.
A kind nurse who kneels at my side and says “I have an 11 yr old, I can’t imagine, my heart breaks for you”
A resting boy who is trying to sleep off his mistakes from earlier today.
I share this here, why?
Because I am broken, I am weary, and I am lost…..but not just for myself…..but for my baby boy who is more broken, and more weary than I.
Could I have helped him?
Was I to weak, when he needed me to be strong?
Did I miss it?
I cry out oh Lord, for our refuge is found only in you. Reach down, snatch up this boy and rescue him from this enemy inside of him.
I sit for endless hours in this waiting room….
The sweet girl offers a warm cup of coffee, and yes; if even for a moment, I find comfort in its warmth, I savor the aroma, hoping to escape this nightmare I’m in. but I can not…
Depression is real…
It knows:
No age
No gender
No faith
Why…..?
I know Lord, you will do great things through him, and I find just an ounce of joy in that trust.

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About multipurpose-mom

Stacey is a: Saved by Grace, God fearing, Bible believing, Child of the King! In her chaotic world of full time employment, being a wife, raising 5 boys, laundry, dishes, carpool, PTSA, and on and on: She is STILL trying to fulfill God's call in her life.....to share her story, her battles, her triumphs, and testimonies of being a teen mom from a drug addicted home, to being the not so perfect wife and mother she is today! Her prayer is to lift up and encourage others through the words that God lays before her! In her chaos she has learned, she is not just a wife and mother.....she is a taxi driver, a nurse, a referee, a counselor, a maid, a cook and so much more...she has MANY purposes! Welcome to Multipurposemom.com, Here we hope you find strength, humor, tears, and tangibility for your journey....whatever it is! Please feel free to comment (we LOVE comments) and if you are blessed, please won't you share the blessing with others! Thanks for Visiting! In Christ!

7 responses »

  1. My own brother, at 17 years old, is in a much similar state. My heart breaks and aches and long for him to be broken so that he will surrender. Prayer is the only weapon right now! My heart aches for you, praying!

  2. I’ll be praying for you all . I was there myself from age 15-20 and tried several times to kill myself. I cannot imagine how it must be for you to watch your son struggle so. Hang in there. Greater is He that is in us that he that is in the world!

  3. Stacey, I came over from Christian Momma. I want you to know that I will be lifting your son up to Jesus all week long. I declare victory over the strongholds of the enemy and I declare peace, restoration, and healing. The enemy is not in your son, but he’s on the outside trying to make life hard, but we’re not going to claim that in Jesus’ name. Just know that I’m praying for you.

    • I lift your efforts to God our Father, I praise your prayer and I know God has heard you and is moving on you r petition as we speak, I join you in your prayers and will repeat them daily, standing in belief that Victory is at hand. I also bind the enenmy that he be tangled in his own set traps, keep him Father too busy to bother this child this family this mother again for a long time, I ask I join in prayer and I praise for the victory, in Jesus Name! Amen

      TiAnna Mae(my baby’s middle name is Mae!), your prayer moved the spirit in me, i hope you don’t mind. thank you for showing your heart as an example for others to follow.-WATW

      Stacey,
      You keep holdin on Momma, don’t let the devil convince you to let go, you’ll make ok, believe that and you will be saved. We are here to help you, offer you strength for your fight, may you be renewed.-WATW

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