It’s been no secret that I dislike my profession as a nurse Oh. So. Much.
It’s been “ok” for a season because I can do it with a servants heart as Christ would want me to do.
But anyone that knows me, knows that I believe with my whole heart that God has Bigger Plans for my Life. For His Glory!
When I began taking my blogging a little more seriously back in July 2011 I had NO clue what God would do for me.
I’ve been speaking it out in faith.
Pleading to God to allow me to work from home, while contributing to our income, write and speak….share His story!
But being the sole income in a home with 5 boys makes those sort of decisions a little tougher to make. Even with Faith!
So in January, after much prayer and consideration; I signed up to be an Independent thirty-one gifts Consultant with the eventual goal to work from home, Not only is this a wonderful faith based company, I knew that it would be an avenue I could use to pour Jesus into others instead of having it sucked from me as I often feel it is at the full time job. It would also “train” me to stand in front of people and speak. 😉 All the while creating enough income tto contribute at home. The plan…once I got some momentum going with my thirty-one business that I could pursue my writing and speaking stronger.
The biggest bump in our road would be insurance. Even when hubby finds work, it likely wouldn’t be a wage comparable to mine, but we need to carry health insurance for our boys. Anyone with boys knows how much insurance is needed. (They don’t offer frequent flyer cards at quick cares) Especially when you have one with a heart defect.
But, not only that…the place I worked sucked the absolute Life out of me. It’s a popularity game, and if you don’t play along, you lose. Good Nurses have lost their jobs for a FRACTION of what others have done and still remain employed. It’s an environment where morale has hit an all time low, most people are out only for themselves.
And so, it became my turn. I won’t explain the entire situation. A few reasons: It’s lengthy, it’s personal, ans well it may even be against the law.
Bottom line is, I made a poor judgement possibly in choosing not to administer a medication even though it was a new patient, the order for the medication wasn’t even transcribed until 45 minutes after the due time, and it was at the end of my shift. I reported it to the on-coming nurse and went home.
The next day I was phoned for a “statement” (Everything is an “Investigation” there.) They expressed the concern, I agreed with the concern. Not trying to hide anything, so I questioned, what there was to investigate??
7 days I was left in limbo….7 days!!! Phone calls not returned, answers not given. I even went there in person on day 6.
7 days later they called me in to terminate me.
7 ans 1/2 years I have worked hard for this company. I have done countless jobs that no one else would do. Filled in as a manager even though they couldn’t pay me more, (I actually filled in the very day before I was suspended) I have even defended their stupidity when the other nurses called it out. Why didn’t I leave sooner? On my own? I made a pretty competitive wage. I’ve been there 7 years, have held a few management positions that did provide raises. And well…I made decent money for being an LPN. As an LPN I am not as marketable in the healthcare field….and where I worked was sort of like a mini hospital (only with a much greater patient load)
Nursing may not be my “career” of choice, but I worked hard, enjoyed my patients (when we weren’t so overloaded that we could barely even look at them). I’m sure I wasn’t the best nurse, but I truly believe I was a good nurse. I could sleep at night knowing that I did all I could do for those people given the hand that we were dealt there. I dedicated every work day to the Lord. This very scripture has gotten me through most days.
Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men.
As crazy as it sounds, I feel. So. Free….
I believe 110% that this was an act ordained by God.
Does it hurt? Absolutely! Just because of how wrong I was done. By the men and woman I have worked along side of for the last 7 yrs. I thought they were like family. A fraction of them have even bothered to contact me.
But I know…this is my 2X4 from God. He knows this is the only way I would Wake up and Move on…. Pursuing His work. This is the Scripture He gave me this morning before I headed up there…..
for it is light that makes everything visible. This is why it is said: “Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.”
So, I’m not sure what tomorrow will hold. But I know tomorrow is in His hands. I’m placing my whole faith in Him that provides …for even the sparrow.