Homemaker failure….

So, back in March I was offered the “opportunity” to leave my full time job (which was also the sole income for our home of seven).
This has been a long time vision of mine. Something I truly feel that God is calling me to. Has been calling me to for years!
and well…..Without an exit from employment like the one He gave me, I likely would have never left.
So finally….I am a stay at home mom, working on my thirty-one business (to help generate “some” income) and pursue His calling in my life to become a writer and a speaker.
I should have SO much free time….right?
Honestly, I feel more behind, and less productive with everything than I did when I was working.
I had so many things on my “Homemaker List”
  • plant a garden
  • can produce from said garden
  • keep a well kept home
  • create a Christ like atmosphere in our home
  • wear an apron and cook many meals
  • study my Bible every day
  • become involved in some ministries at church
  • begin pursuing my writing /speaking
I look NOTHING like the mother portrayed above and well…
Truth be told….I am failing at every.single.one of these tasks above.
My house is a hot mess, the garden never got planted, I’m lucky to cook 4 dinners a week. We won’t even talk about breakfast and lunch…..
I am involved in only one ministry at church, and truthfully I’m not even really doing much there, and I’m not really doing a good job.
To pursue my writing / speaking….well, I constructed a letter, had my pastor read over it, and offer some counsel, and that is really as far as I have went. 
Look in the archives, I’ve hardly even written here.
I will say that only in the recent last couple weeks, I have been better about reading my Bible, and studying Gods word in that wonderful Proverbs 31 study I mentioned before. But like I said there, the more I try the more vulnerable I become….or something all twisted like that.
and I’m pretty sure at this point, my husband may attest to my failures….
This isn’t really what I had in mind when I tag lined this ministry “embracing the chaos”
Something has to change. What am I doing wrong? 
I want to garden. I want to prepare meals daily. I want to be a calm and loving wife and mother. I want to minister to others in the church, and most of all I want to be closer to my God!
And honestly if I managed my time better, I probably could succeed at some of these things. 
But there is no “drive” When I seek out to do something, I become overwhelmed, lose motivation, and fail. Over and over and over again…
and frankly, I’m getting really tired of being tired….
Have you been able to make a transition from working mom / to stay at home mom? 
Which direction to go? Which things to knock off the list?
Do any of you have some words of wisdom to share?

About multipurpose-mom

Stacey is a: Saved by Grace, God fearing, Bible believing, Child of the King! In her chaotic world of full time employment, being a wife, raising 5 boys, laundry, dishes, carpool, PTSA, and on and on: She is STILL trying to fulfill God's call in her life.....to share her story, her battles, her triumphs, and testimonies of being a teen mom from a drug addicted home, to being the not so perfect wife and mother she is today! Her prayer is to lift up and encourage others through the words that God lays before her! In her chaos she has learned, she is not just a wife and mother.....she is a taxi driver, a nurse, a referee, a counselor, a maid, a cook and so much more...she has MANY purposes! Welcome to Multipurposemom.com, Here we hope you find strength, humor, tears, and tangibility for your journey....whatever it is! Please feel free to comment (we LOVE comments) and if you are blessed, please won't you share the blessing with others! Thanks for Visiting! In Christ!

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  1. The surprising truth is the transition takes time. We expect it to happen all at once or when we decide on it. Anyone can fake it but without taking the time we end up a hot mess .. and the best way to master it all… is to to master it one at a time. Thanks for keeping it real!

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