So, I have been
participating attempting to participate in a wonderful online Bible study that is hosted through the Good Morning Girls, and Women Living Well. We are journeying through Proverbs 31.
Throw in a crazy English class, a couple of graduating seniors and their “due” celebration, and well…. I have pretty much been rushing through days at a time in an order to “catch up”.
I have managed to get a bit out of this study, but not nearly what I would have if I was participating fully. Really, I have been robbing myself of all that God has to offer me through this study, and through His word. I am so very Thankful for the group of women that I am in this study with. They have been an ongoing encouragement to me through this.
This small community of cyber sisters in Christ have truly ministered to me and encouraged me…. more than most of the earthly sisters in Christ I have here.
This week (I know it’s only Wednesday) I have been All In. Fully submitting myself to this study, and I just wanted to share where I am so far.
Monday we learned that the Proverbs 31 woman’s husband is respected at the city gate (31:23) and in Proverbs 12:4 it also states that A wife of Noble character is her husbands crown, but that a disgraceful wife is like decay to his bones. This verse has now been used twice in this study, and it resonated with me in a way that humbled me deeply.
I have not been my husbands crown, I have not been managing things well, in order that he may be respected at the city gates. I shared this in our closed group after this days study..
Catching up this morning, and I realize that the proverbs 12:4 verse has now been in this study twice..
What does it mean to be Noble? Here’s what the dictionary says
“A wife of noble character is her husbands crown, but a disgraceful wife is like decay in his bones”
This verse struck me the first time I went through it, and now that it’s there a second time, I’m weeping.
Am I being a wife of noble character? What is my husbands perception of such a wife? Have I asked him? When I become frustrated with him, do I become like decay in his bones? I do.
Although, it seems in the past, the more gentle I become, and more I try to be a calm and gentle spirited wife, the more vulnerable I become to the intensiveness of his personality. It’s like, it hurts more, and wounds deeper.
My whole life I have had to be strong, and independent, and with emotional walls built….how now, shall I begin to allow them to come down. Allow the hurt, so that I can begin to heal!
admirable in dignity of conception, manner of expression, execution, or composition:
Just this past Sunday, after Saturdays long day of graduation celebration, I became upset with my husband for not getting to church on time with me. When he showed up after and we were talking with our pastor, I was sure to call him out on it….He was hurt by that, and rightfully so. Really, I was like decay to his bones, and I publicly humiliated him. and why? for selfish reasons even I don’t understand.
As we continued through this week, I have also learned that the Proverbs 31 woman is clothed in strength and dignity. I found it no coincidence that when you look up the definition of being Noble, it includes a character of dignity.
“She is clothed in strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.”
bearing, conduct, or speech indicative of self-respect or appreciation of the formality or gravity of an occasion or situation.
nobility or elevation of character; worthiness: dignity of sentiments.
If I rely on my heavenly Father for my strength, then how can I fail? Remembering to rely on Him is the key here. And allowing myself some grace as well, as I am human.
Have you been participating in a Bible study? Is it an online study, or a live study? What seems to be standing out to you?
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